I can't stop thinking about Jason.
My poor little gay. :(






So, I wrote Tom today basically telling him it won't happen.
I probably would have done it sooner..... but he's the first guy to pay attention to me in a long time. I just kind of wish it would happen more often. Or I wish that I would start liking guys who are available. And not in their 40s.

My sociology teacher is amazing though. He's so smart and attractive, lol, and he sounds like Christopher Walkin. It's so hard to concentrate though when all I can think about is him raping me.

I guess I just like things to be complicated. The one guy I can actually see myself with won't work because of a million reasons and I'm afraid all our friends would really be pissed about it. And the others I'm less interested in..... it just won't happen.